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Monday, November 29, 2004
Nothing great or special about the long awaited sitex, instead it kind of sux to me.. sway sway kanna some attitude ppl.. making me sick of purchasing anything yesterday.. haiz.. Casio exilim ez-55 or Cannon ixus 40, both of these digicam were what had been bothering me for the past few days.. haha... finally exilim won the fight... But kind of ex sia... anyone i gonna get u, i promise exilim.. u gonna be mine.. if only winning a person is as easy as purchasing of stuffs, but this is also what make a person winning heart and trust interesting... cause u cant buy trust or love from frenz or people, instead u have to go thru the hard way.. u gonna earn and gain them... Hmm.. this really make me wonder how much value am i to them(all frenzs).
simplicityrulez* @
9:14 PM
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
No sign of drop in temperature... had been slping alots of hours for the past 2 days.. Just shek... backache.. some signs of dengue fever thats what i'm told.. Coze one of my collegue just got it.. Don think i'm that "lucky" ba.. hmm.. sianz..
simplicityrulez* @
10:49 PM
Monday, November 22, 2004
Another sunday... nothing unusal actually happen.. just that i'm having the feeling of getting weaker and weaker, in terms of physical.. Damn!! For the past few months i've been catching cold, fever and lossing countless amount of rest time.. It isnt like this last year, i've never fell sick at all men.. Thks alot to the sun, for bestowing me with his endless beam, inflicting nothing but piercing pain on the skin and my "da and empty toh". As a result, no food for the day.
ARGH... siao liao.. till now i am still rushing for my presetation for this coming tuesday, its a major one which my department repetation is a stake. My mind was still at in daze for the past 28 hours.. hmm.. really feel like reporting sick on monday.. i donno whelter will i be able to perform well for my job tml, if i do then this gonna be my 2th mc in 2 months time and there's still lots of work to be done.. hmm... 39.2 degree.. still haven hit my record sianz sia... work work work..
simplicityrulez* @
1:29 AM
Saturday, November 20, 2004
After having a great guard duty last nite, i'm really too shek to out for leisure activities anymore. Somehow i've drag myself to simlim with my bros.. with only the intention of getting my cdrw and some research for my bonus gifts.. Half way thru the marketing, fang call asking about meeting up with chris and her for moive tonite.. i'm kind of totally lost.. cause this is the first time i've any heard of any outing at all, then all of a sudden "pop" here's one... Not to be a spoiler to her.. i've make myself to go but damn i'm really shek, headache, not enough slp. bad temp trying my best to control.. yes control control dai bei bei control..
Those movies screening are abit too late for chris, so it was cancel instead.. Had our dinner at a newly opened noodle restaurant where the food sux... i would said those hawker centre are alot better then them.. In the end, i've only taken the side dishes, char siew and my all time fav wantan :-) When fang came over to ask for help to handle chris, somehow i was pulled or pushed away to e side by her, think i've somehow cross her path and got myself nearly banging into her ba... casue i was trying to get near and i need to whisper ma.. i noe this is nothing but somehow this action really irritate me for that few mins of time.. it really does man.. WTF is happening to me le.. cause of this little action i've gone mad for a few mins.. i'm not man enough sia.. till now i still don understand why had i felt that way for that few mins.. hmm.. wonder sia...
Finally got to see lena liao.. wana tok to her, as the way we've chat during online but somehow raymond was there.. somehow or rahter because of this, i've reframe myself from toking too much to her lor.. cause it don seems approriate to me lor.. coze when someone else partner is there and u kept pestering the other half, hsi/her parnter might not be happy one lor.. cause might felt negelcted le.. plus fang was there too and she's somehow alone, when chris went into her darker face mode or kept herself busy by pestering or shall i said "entertaining" us hahahahah... I cant leave her alone ma.. if not its like so cruel lor.. cause lena had to accompany her beau lor.. then she will be left alone nia...
At last, everything ends.. i've send fang home as usual but without chris last min of push i might not hav send fang home instead.. coze i was rejected the offer when i about to leave with her when the train reaches simei... this time round i really need to thk chris for giving me that push again.. cause i've actually wanted... Told a little lye today.. felt kind of guilty... cause when i've dash out.. the reply i've gave fang was "i was told to send u home by chris"... actually i'm the one who wanna send instead, chris was just the one who gave me the extra push.. haiz.. why i cant even tell the truth for this le... this was the second time i've lyed to her.. first the herbal tea and now this... haiz.. damn.. The actual reason for rejecting my offer was somehow she's worry for my ankle injury cause she had seen me.. doin those kicking along the journey for today... Its not that i don wish to hav my operation soon but its either better or worse after the surgery 50/50... its gonna take bout 6 months for completed process and i don really wish to be a burden to others... Somehow i think i've really provoked her when i've mention for the upcoming free wall climbing which i've wished to taken part in. She's aware that i shouldnt be doing this, coze i'm told not to take part in vigourous activities.. but its in my blood to try new things out le.. what to do, bo bian le.. hahaha.. wau bian.. so sianz.. still need to work OT tonite for presentation for tuesday sianz arh.. sianz arh.........
simplicityrulez* @
11:22 PM
Thursday, November 18, 2004
I was late this mrn for my PD course.. shit damn it... When i've mention that i've forgoten the exact webbie and had directed her for the correct one from lena but its true that i cant recall them.. her reply seems toally diff from her usual style... its kind of short and cold.. I'm i being too sensitive?? Nopez.. i dont think so, even when she did said that i'm... i trust my sense this time round.. something seems to be wrong.. maybe she wan me to tell her myself cause more appropriate and more sincere ba.. This really sour my mood for almost half the day, making me dull.. Might had misunderstood that i've no real intention of giving her... frankly speaking at first yes.. cause i'm just not sure of how much i've written, which were related to her.. kind of worry that our friendship might got worse if there's any misunderstanding.. To me this friendship is damn impt cause this is the only relationship i can hav, when the thought of further improvement for the current one had so far failed & there don seems to hav any possibilites of having an upgrade either.. anyway in the end i've given to her in the evening. Her reply came only in the nite.. seems kind of pls and satisfy that i've given it to her ba... maybe she's just worry of what is happening to me lately as a frenz, maybe she's just kepo of whatever bad comments i've wrote on her.. maybe she just wish to understand me better.. maybe more then a frenz.. hahaah.. quit dreaming pls dai yucong wake up liao.. hahaa.. (impossible sia :-( )
Its really been along time since i've got a chat with lena.. seems likes many many months or years liao.. haha.. siao arh.. She's kind of depress and by rite i should be the listener instead but somehow this time round she playing that role instead.. hmm... think i shouldn't hav wrote about my rumble activites cause this had make ppl worry for nothing.. but if i'm not gng to write them.. then can someone tell me where can i let out those steam those frustration.. i really need a place for me to vent my frustration.. and this seems to be a great one.. There come a pt when both of us started to ask qns which others might felt stupid or weird "tell u how u find about me or who am i?" to me this is a good way to reevaluated urself..
simplicityrulez* @
11:18 PM
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Everything went peacefully as usual not until when i heard my dad repremanding my sis.. till a point i felt over the limit... all i did was to suggest a solution, military stlye of life style.. "u wash or do whatever things u had used".. somehow.. that old man seems to disagree.. asking who the hell am i, asking him to deal with his personnel house chores.. "aint we a family, why do we hav to divide works" this is farking reply i got.. damn just don get what i mean at all.. this goes on and on.. until somehow he mention this.. "are u thinking that just by being able to earn, get u the rite to reprimand me and had this feeling that ur the boss now, since ur paying everythings.. " why do the man i;'ve hate since young.. since.. i cant remember since when.. there's only more hatred btw us.. the man whom had lye to us.. the man who had betray my mum not once, not twice but........ fark it, all along the reason he had mention had nv came across my mind man.. i've been worrying about them, planning for them.. paying as much as i can.. thats 1/3 of what i'm earning.. i'm a human being too.. i've emotion its just that i do not show.. then here come WWF royal rumble.. we got physical... really physical i mean in terms of inflicting pain and damage.. i'm only grappling and defence .. cause no matter what i can retalitaed coze his still my old man.. thks alot to all those sparring i've when thru.. if not i might had been ko by a ex-boxer.. damn it..
Here come the best of its best.. yeah.. man.. my mum the one i love and care most intending to climd and jump off the building hahaha....... this time i nv stop her... why didnt i? what is happent to me?? had i gone numb?? do i wanna see another death?? another someone i noe jumping off, killing him or herself.. i've seen too much simply too much.. its not the first time she's doing this.. i might hav ost her last year, if i've never make a move then... this time something is really wrong with me.. wtf i still cant forget that sentence... there's no bond btw us at all now.. i don feel home at all.. when all along i've been putting in alot of effort to bring peace and harmony.. hahaha.. what a fool i've been.. how i've wish to have someone whom i can talk to or just someone i felt comfortable with to sit down and kept me accompany silently.. hatred, dishearten, vengenance, and bleeding are what's left in my soul now..
Best i also hav to handle Frenzs n collegues i've given my best to help out.. but somehow there's ppls who don seems to appreciate it.. then in return i've felt sad and diappointed again.. they are not helping themself.. its break heart to see this.. its not only the few whom i've met almost every week but those whom i've not really known had also come towards me, for help or accompany... am i god or what?? how come ppl just keep coming.. i do appreciate it but i've my limitation to solve or help.. but when offers are being ignore or unappriacte i've felt............. BGR don even think bout it.. i don even hav the calibre to hav it.. all i could do was to stay low.. offer help and ask for no returns... hoping and praying for miricale is what i've used to believe in.. but now... i noe there's 2 words call "almost impossible" hehe.. just to zi wo an wei.. its better then "impossible" at least..
simplicityrulez* @
11:34 PM
Friday, November 12, 2004
Begin the day by bringing my mum over to CGH for her sugery. Glad that its not as serious as what i've expected, left only with those liquid nitrogen treatments which might take about few more months of continues treatment.. lets hope and pray that its gonna take effect, or else the worse will come knocking on my door. Really kind of moody for the whole afternoon, hmm.. somehow i still need to handle "lin mei mei", another problematic kid who needs guidance... haiz... really not into any mood but its somehow i just cant bear to ignore her.
Kind of suprise to bounce into my princess n bro, caught them having lunch together, damn it "bo jio". As uausl, i try to be my noraml self, showing my million $ smiles.. but somehow i still feel kind of sux. Its only when fang came along, then my mood start to get better.. every words & movements made by her during the movie "shutter", its so cute and funny.. till now i still cant forgot those images of her. Actually, i enjoy myself by paying attention to her then the movie itself.. haha... Maybe like what others had said... just by catching the sight or hearing the voice of ur love one is totally enough to brighen up ur day.. even thought its a one sided love... hahaha... silly me.. My mum is gona get better...yeah.. thats rite.. she's gonna get better.....
simplicityrulez* @
12:53 AM
Monday, November 08, 2004
All thks to the bbq sting ray which we hav taken during sat nite.. now both of us are having a fever. Worse of all, ive to be in this state to perform my guard duty. Thru out the nite, falling asleep was almost impossible, casue my heart was worry for her and my mind was processing for solution to get her well.
I've dash out straight in a hunt for chinese herbal tea, the moment i've completed my duty. Really having a hard time getting them, cause i myself was still running fever. After arriving at least the office, i've gave her a call and arranged to meet just outside the bank. I just left after handing it over to her, pretending that i've just happen to pass by and pass her those tea as i'm just getting it for my frenz.. haha actually it took me a few hours to get them, but somehow this lame excuse was straight away being expose by her.. leaving me so "paiseh". A few words of "thks and i'm really touch" is enough as this is something really precious to me.. it's worth the risk of nearly getting myself into accident.. haha... i must said i'm really lucky.. if not i might hav up the black van/car wrap in plasitc bag.. hahah... another near miss hahaha.. To me its not about asking for anything in return, its about doing something and showing care and concern to someone who is really precious to u.. its not about if that person appreciate it.. its about how u felt.. so long the precious person is well taken care.. i will be glad
simplicityrulez* @
2:09 AM
