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Friday, December 31, 2004

Its 9am now.. kaoz.. just fall asleep nia.. finally manage to but hey... How come a piece of wonderful news.. A wake up call from my chief telling me, our department would required one personnel over to india for the "Tsunami" crisis.. Chief was not required, so its left with luke and me.. its impossible for luke to go.. cause his having a new family to run.. Even if he wanted to. For me there's nothing much going on.. Since i'm having a really "wonderful" year. Its anytime in jan, so as to say.. it shall be tml onwards anytime.. At this moment.. i'm somehow really confuse.. should i or shouldn't i be gng.. hmm.. cant make up my mind.. lets allow fate to decide ba.. this time.. Unless i've got a super good reason not to sail.. if not i'll go.. Dont see a thing, that gonna keep me staying.. I've got nothing in my life.. whereas others had at least a family to look after.. hmm.. helping out others had always been part of blood.. hmm...

Looks like its time for me to start packing up liao.. Need to get a bigger bag by today.. big enough at least for 1 to 2 months stay.. the rest is still unknown, duration is always buay zhiu one le hahaha.. hmm..

simplicityrulez* @ 9:21 AM

Thursday, December 30, 2004

As promised, went for chris bday.. purposely went late for the arrival of others... In the first place... dun even had the mood or intention of gng.. somehow i'll still need to face it.. don wish to be like any other guy.. who choose to run away..
Manages to go according to plan.. "smiling face" operation activated.. deep down.. Deep below, it really sux... wanted to be normal or at least act normal.. No matter what.. fear, stress or avoidance seems to have been implanted into her brain.. Somehow.. its sux.. thks to all my doing.. unclear explanation and impatientness ba.. Had anyone wonder how would u feel, when all along.. someone whom u had always wishes to be together or gave him/her happiness, actually turn out to be too stress out by u.. Started to avoid and had build up an invisible wall surrounding her/his, preventing u from entering his/her safety zone.. All i've wanted today was to be normal and as usual send her home just for safety of conern... but...... sux.. strong sense of avoidance..

Somehow just felt that staying away from this current group of buddy will help to ease the pain ba.. but if i've done this.. things will not be solve.. instead u be treated as chidlish or rather irresponsible person ba.. I know my character too well liao.. coze... haiz.. WTF

simplicityrulez* @ 1:56 AM

Monday, December 27, 2004

No comments.. donno what to say... its my fault, thats all i noe..

simplicityrulez* @ 10:29 PM

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Christmas eve.. seems to be what i've been looking forward to, especially when u hav gone thru some brain cracking on what to get and where to celebrate, when its plan and thought for others.. Somehow it still kind of ok when before the meal and once after dinner... things start to get rough to me.. As usual, possible situation had already been predicted before hand, but still those words and lines can still been sharp as a pieceing arrow.. Even thought it might seems to be a joke but somehow i dont really take it that way... ahhha but bo bian.. my style was to keep quiet, dun wanna spoilt mood, then put my ever lasting smiling mask..

Fisherman village will be another place, where i gonna remember for life, those motion, ear ringing words, abit kind of fake expression and many many more... How come whenever something worse had happen to me, the very next min, i will happen to see a falling star arh.. some many times liao... Hmm.. the last that happen ended me up in the hospital for afew days.. so suay..

After sending everyone home... as usual i took the same route back.. step by step.. dragging dragging... All the way till bout 12pm plus today.. then i manage to reach home.. hahaha.. cause leg, soul and mind too heavy liao arh.. mei ba fan arh.. Spend the nite.. lying on any places(haha... u name it, i did it.. yeah.. wanna break my record bo.. haha) when thru brainstorming of what happen for this whole year.. and what had i archieve so far.. work wise, i've excel but others issue its a big fat "O"

simplicityrulez* @ 1:35 PM

Friday, December 24, 2004

TAMADE!!! Si Gu Niang!!!.. let me wait for so long.. from mrn till afternoon.. then in the end tell me his not gng to bugis.. Argh at moment sibeh TL sia.. haiz... nvm i'm somehow used to it liao..

In the end, jio my bin mei mei along to bugis to shop for my item.. Went over to her house first, for a bowl of "ba ku tei" not bad got some standard sia.. but not as good as mine... hahaha.. not i "Hao Liang"i used to cook alot b4 my NS lor... hahah.. u can call me a modern man lor.. Will be able to survive in the kitchen one hor.. hahaa.. abit buay hiyao bai YEAH!! finally got what i wanted for a long time.. my sis today was so nice to me sia.. hmm.. best of all.. we try to bluff the sales attendance that we're really bro and sis but cant... haiz.. sianz.. lagi best on of the guy thought we're a couple hahahahah... *flip* today was a great day.. thks alot mei mei *muack* hahahaha

Hmm... suprise that my giordano membership is still valid sia.. all along i donno le.. hahaha.. so blur of me.. But anyway i dun care..Yippee.. so happy today.. happy happy hahaha.. tml then worry worry... hahaha

Had some nice chat with ting ting, serene and many more.. hahah.. shit haven buy her present yet.. siao liao.... gonan be hang.. abit paiseh for not being able to attend her invitation to her christmas count down party... But there's something more impt for me to do instead.. hahaha.. but still kind of worry for her tml, donno will she be able to face it.. How come so late liao still no reply from chris le.. hmm... Yeah!! V!! Today also got a few first time... first time go over my mei mei house for a bowl of soup.. know her for so long liao.. only today then ask me over.. see .. this bro here not imp to her sia.. so sad :-( got handsomes no brother liao lor.. So proud to hav such a mei mei.. she's quite good with her act thing.. seems to have talent in it... really hope that she will excel in it.. prove all those who look down on her wrong ba.. GANBATTE MASU!! First time buying such a item for someone yeah... hmm.. bin mei mei look good in that white shirt.. which she try on.. hmm.. but still cant be compare to .... hahahaha

hmm... today wanna chit chat but donno wanna call or chit chat anot.. cause scared i might be a nuisance.. So no choice had to bite the bullet.. hmm.. donno why i seems to stumble abit sometimes.. Dun care la.. anyway today really happy with what i've done.. at least thats truth happiness from my heart.. thk those living above for giving me such a nice mei mei and someone for me to love.. To work and love for someone, whom u don dare to ask for any returns if u wish and desire to have.. hahaha.. So bo liao so me talking shit again.. Wondering when will i be able to come out with my studies and analysis which i've done so far.. hmm....

simplicityrulez* @ 1:32 AM

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Hmm... was told by the doc that somehow.. my injuries had gone from bad to worse.. kaoz.. always wanna bullshit with me.. trying their best to brainwash me into surgery and give up sports..
PUI!! Bo chap... Best of all.. found out that what does genetic problem/genetic disorder are liao.. somehow those docs told me it cant be cure.. WTF!! wanna scare me arh.. wait long long la..
Swee la!! Lets see what i had on my body now.. hmm

clot blood
chipped bone
knee ligement wear off
finger disalignment
Genetic (newly buddy)

haha.. swee la..

simplicityrulez* @ 2:29 PM

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

wake up at 11pm.. still feeling kind of shek and really having a damn bad hangover.. damn pain sia... Thks to all those beer which i've drunk the previous nite.. Sei sei go out and makan my lunch then sei sei went home... Gave her a call for chit chat, cause last nite too sei to call to ensure her safety, whelter if she's send home all the way.. Somehow kind of worry...

Met up with pin mei mei, for the hunt of linda gift.. but somehow cant manage to get any suitable one for her.. haiz.. then ended spending most of our time enjoying cafe latte and in search of my own personel gift... Christmas eve is only bout 1 day left and thats the amount of time, i'm left with to plan for outing.. jus hoping for it be a memorable one... Came out with afew ideas.. such a dinner, movie, bedok for supper then pasir ris fisherman village for tok rot session maybe till mrn but kind of impossible.. cause there will be ppl working on friday.. and after all the work.. gonna be too tired to endure those long waiting hours for the sunrise..

Somehow a bro like me had make my sis worry for me, kaoz.. so si bai.. but no choice.. some chooses i make dont seem to meet eye to eye as her.. I noe that she really care and afraid of me getting hurt again.. but in life its like.. if u don try.. the chances will be 0% but if u do try and put in effort, there will be at least some % of success.. even when its as small as 0.01%.. there's still chance ma.. just follow ur heart and dun care about wat they said.. I've my own reason to be sturborn and persistance..

I've always have this feeling that i'm not being useful to anyone whom i've know at all.. just a plain frenz, maybe sightly better then a hi bye frenz ba.. i dun seems to be able to get those assurance from anyone yet... All i wanna
achieve is one day when i'm gone.. someone would tell others "hey thats my frenz.. useful/nice person who had brought happiness to me"... 12years 1 months left to go...

Had manage to clear up my wallet, and the precious movie tix was still nicely kept inside together with the reciept which we've once and only once makan the BBQ cum Ice cream making meal and only movie together as a so call couple ba.. hahah.. seems like it was just not long ago.. but its quite along time liao.. haaha.. the color of clothing, the expresssion on the face and the voices and joy of the day... i can still clearly remember them.. NO JOKE.. seems like a novel story but its truth.. hahaha.. seems silly, idotic, psycho or helpless to others ba.. but who cares.. this are impt items and memorable memories to me.. Everyone had their own rite to choose what to be kept in their heart and brain... and i've just only choose this as part of it..

simplicityrulez* @ 11:45 AM

Yesterday was 21 dec 2004, its a day full of first time for me.. First time attending Best frenz ROM, 1st time having ROM dinner, 1st times those newly marry couple treat me as thought i'm the main role for the day, 1st time organising a Anni dinner & 1st time bringing a frenz as partner to anni dinner.. Its really a day full of suprises, misunderstanding and fun.. This is what i call a memorable day.. A day, which i will never forget in my whole life.... Thks to all those frenzs that had make it happen...

The day started off.. with both of us guys being late and a miscom or somehow my failure to anticipate fang from entering the train.. Jasmine was half die, thru out the day.. The only resolution was to keep her toking and entertain.. so i've to find ways and means to allow her to "Poke" me... Seems like i'm an easy target.. hahaha.. Serene was drop dead gorgeous in her navy blue gown.. Now i can believe the phrase.. "the prettiest moment of a woman life, would be her wedding day" yeah.. The ambience inside the room was really cool.. all i could felt was those strong sense of blessing and happiness circulating around the both of them.. blessing from all of us and all those celestial being whom anyone can name of.. There's sign of gabra of the bride and groom during the exchange of vows.. haha.. So how it had kept me wondering, will i ever had this chance in my life to be in there with my love, exchanging vows and being truthfully blessed for the rest of our life.. hahaha.. fantasize abit heheheehe.... As usual photos were taken and i'm given afew chances too by the newlywedd.. hahaha.. "AN SHUANG & LIU HAN".. hahahah...

Somehow the ROM dinner was turned into ROM lunch instead.. For this, i really had to thk serene and her husband jian hong alot for their effort for allowing me to attend this once in a lifetime occasion and also there's some hidden reason as well..yeah!!! Somehow i've escaped the possibility of being charged by law, cause of some heated arguement between me and my superior as regard to the attending of ROM dinner... HENG! Somehow we are part of the topic for the day.. hahaha dun care.. since i am doing what i shall be doing hahaha.. Just kind of worry for her, withstanding those words.. I cant retaliate if i does, there will be more being push to her.. I've bought nothing but trouble for her.. haiz.. sad... Hmm.. somehow i just cant bear to leave them for my anni dinner, COZE MY ULTIMATE MOTIVE WAS NOT ACHIEVE... ARRGGHHH!!! sianz... cant manage to grab any hints or ideas yet..

ANNI DINNER

Things seems kind of screw up when i first arrived.. not enough manpower and lots of last min work.. damn it.. fancy me, have to slog thru with my shirt on.. kaoz.. bo bian sia.. Really kind of felt bad, as Isabelle gonna travel there on her own.. cause i've really got lots of unfinished last min work to be done.. haiz.. so ungentleman of me... Dun think i'm ever one before hahaha.. buddy so u wont ke kao rite (sorry belle :P)... Kind of miscom again this time(how many times, i've miscom le).. belle ended up alighting at the other enterance.. worse she pay for her cab fare.. so ma lu..For the beginning of the show.. i've neglected her, cause i'm part of the organising team so bo bian.. heng heng the tai tai and gf of my collegues had kept one another entertain.. Somehow thru out the event i've try my best to ensure whenever its possible to be seated, i'll always be there right beside her... if not, not nice le.. ask ur frenz along then throw her there alone and die.. Thru out, i've catch afew glismp while working, she seem kind of joyful, so heng arh.. she enjoy.. kekeke

One thing which really touch me was that belle was really buddy enough to have kept food for me and somehow she's kind of unwell that day.. but she kept her promise to attend the dinner.. Belle u the best.. nice to have u as kaki!!! So belle do have such a caring and nice side of her too.. :p hahahah.. Somehow, we were mistaken as a couple and was make a the topic of the day.. kaoz.. really *flip & jaw drop* no matter how many times i've explain, ppl just don believe me.. kaoz.. even those ladies i donno also came over "hey ur gf arh.. beri pretty". Worse of all, recieve lots of nonsence sms from ppl asking stupid qns and tease... Wa bian buay sian arh.. Thks belle for withstanding those onslaught of all those qns being post to u when i am not around.. Who ask u to be my pretty and cute kaki/buddy hahahah.. SWEE BO!! Hmm.. all in all, everyone including our bosses and belle had enjoy the show... But the whole event would be much more perfect, when i am not command to drink and "she" would be here instead, to view our hardwork.. i've all along wished for her to here.. sharing my joy.. but it just seems impossible and dun think it will ever happen.. somehow i still do hope the precious moment to come.. All thks to Serene Lim hui chiu, her husband Jian hong, Isabelle and her .... for making today a super memorable day for me.

simplicityrulez* @ 4:57 AM

Sunday, December 19, 2004

hmm... slp at 6plus this mrn and woke up at 10am .. whoa.. so shek.. keep doing this for almost 2 weeks liao.. Yesterday, was a much more impt reason for me to do so.. frenz in trouble.. dai bei bei there to help or lend a listening ear.. hmm.. look on the brighter side.. its a type of training or lesson for me to understand and analyse better..

Met up with the ladies and ended up at lena place.. Steamboat for lunch and steamboat for dinner.. hmm... seems to be a carefree day.. consume, hibernate, sight seeing and consume again.. thats a total of 2 steamboat in a day.. hmm.. and twice being the volunter auntie for washing up.. So how felt kind of uneasy with my myself... probably i'm worrying or thinking too much of "why this" and "why that".. foul weather for me.. buay song ma.. yeah.. not with others but mostly with myself for being too...........

Had some nice chat with frenzs online, esp bro and that frenz whom i mention earlier, whom i've listen to till early mrn.. hahahaha thks to them.. really putting in their effort to at least listen to an ah bei pouring them with lots of why why why and more why.. and THKS ALOT to those.. suxer or lamer for buring up my once forgotten icy flame..
THKS LE.... hahahaha

simplicityrulez* @ 11:32 PM

Thursday, December 02, 2004

yeah yeah!! The long awaited annoucement for our year end bonus is out hahaha.. finally sia.. its 2.25 much lesser then we've expected.. 2.25 which included 13th month, that's left with 1.25. Out of that 1.25, 0.5 had already been taken in the mid year.. hmm.. so this month pay shall be about min 5 to 6k ba.. kaoz.. so little for year end sia.. sianz.. Hmm... there's afew items which i'm planning to get for myself
(1) digital camera 800
(2) watch 200
(3) Specs 250
(4) printer 300
(5) Ipod 650
If i'm gonna get all of them, then i'm gonna be broke sia.. hmm... need to seriously set those priority right... camera and specs and watch seems to be a must.. arh...

haha... christmas is round the corner and i'm gonna spend another lonely night again.. hmm... dun really hope so this year.. The beijing trip think i might be cancelling it off liao... cause due to the extreme in climate.. cause i don hav any winter wear with me.. damn it... What can i get for them.. hmm... really hate buying present sia..

This weekend gonna be pack with planning and organising of 15th anni for my ship.. haiz.. work work work..

simplicityrulez* @ 11:37 PM