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Friday, February 18, 2005
There's hardly any short circuit happening to me but today it had finally once again took place.. after so long of high level of resistance, tolerate or supression ba.. hahaa.. Its common for ppl to be doing this.. cause lots of ppls surrounding me had been doing.. Its beri beri hard for me to really burst it out.. sometimes once in a blue moon, my connection might just happen to went short circuit la..
I used to had beri rapid savo temper, its comes and goes really fast.. just like what others might said Mood swing lor.. But today its just another small tiny warning of volcano eruption la.. lucky there's afew poor frenzs of mine being slaughter by my infamous grumble power and rapid change of attitude.. i've manage to reduce part of it down. Everything went back abit more normal when i'm glue to piano and guitar pieces which usually relaxes me easily..
Someone told me, i've always seems to be "acting" infront of them.. always smiling and suppressing and unwillingly to let go of myself by stating the truth reason, even thought i appear to be a happy goes lucky person infront of almost everyone.. hmm.. his not the first person.. telling me this so its never a bother to me either... all i could do was to smile and remain in silence casue there's no requirement of explanation... its was either u understand or u dont..
All in all, does anyone truthly understand the words "Duty and Responsibilites"... its sound simple and easy to understand.. but tell me truthfully how many ppl had truthly been sticking towards the actual meaning this words.. not much i think.. really not much.. I've given chances and more chances till the extended that i'm really getting really tired and disppointed.. When then will lesson be learnt, solution and independant be built... Providing courage, fortitude and morale support were nv a problem but tell me when then will lesson being learn... This time round, i really totally disappointed, even thought we're bond by blood but haiz... really make me worry nia..
Lots of ppl tend to keep on comparing the past with the present but how much did they understand from why and whats the reason of them comparing... Coze the past had already past, which means all those suffering or heartache had already been left behind and almost forgot and normally only those sweet and memorable memories were left behind as memories for them to recall. As a result, it will seems much more sweeter or easier for those person who are suffering from problems currently to kept comparing the present with the past, its a sign of unwillingness to face the fact.. No matter whats the obsticle or no matter how much tough battles u gonna face.. u still have to keep walking forward, outgrowing them.. Its also part of growing up and learning process in everyone's life.. No pt complaining and sitting/ standing still grumbling about life.. whereas nto even a tiny little steps was taken.. getting hurt is also part of preparation for toughing up personnel defence for the furture.. its never how hurtful or how much tears were drops, its about how much are u willing to let go and keep moving... Human might be imcomparable in certain issue but after we're still somehow facing the same basic roots problems in life... Eg: I've been thru the process of lossing ur loves ones, infront of my eyes not once, not twice.. till during that moments i cant even drop a single tears, not because i'm not being effected, its just that the pain were too deep till to the extend that ur having problems sherding tears, Set this aside.. The truth was
NO MATTER HOW DEEPLY HURT U WERE, THERE'S ALWAYS A TIME LIMIT TO THIS DEJECTION. INDUCING URSELF IN THIS SORROW FOR TOO LONG OF A TIME WILL ONLY BOUGHT U MORE UNNECCESARY SUFFERING AND MISERY NIA. HMM.. A SIMPLE EXAMPLE WAS "CLOCK", LIFE WAS JUST LIKE ONE.. IT CANT BE STOP. JUST HAD TO KEEP ON MOVING FORWARD..
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