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Friday, March 11, 2005
That's what i'm exactly feeling now.... When someone had requested for a task. job or favour from me.. i would normally be glad to help and lots of effort will be place into it.. but somehow when the effort were never really appreciated.. this really brings down the morale and dampen my spirit.. No matter how busy or tired i'm, ideas, venues or whatever things involved or backup plans were always been in mind... What i am asking was not rewards, words of thanks or assureness... what i want was the effort being appreciated.. Maybe i just too kepo... but somehow or rather.. i am just trying to bring people closer.. and also organising events for those who might had requested me to do so.. Don't really felt comfortable or anger but only sense of dejection and failure when response went lurkwarm.. Really dont know how to express myself in words now.. it's not the first time i am feeling this way.. somehow the burden i am carrying is getting heavier.. donno how long can i really hold onto it.. but think it might just go burst.. not only i'm carrying my own, as well as ppls or family or whoever, who just might had approached me.. Willing to lend a hand was always my priorty but nowadays.. i'm really looking for someplace or someone whom i can really confront to.. talk to.. share my views or even happiness and boredom.. Why had people alway ask to set a time limit for whatever issue i'm persuiting, or just simply give up completely and stop everything whenever there's a feeling of effort being unappreciated.. I've always told myself not to do so.. cause maybe just one of these days.. effort would be reconginse but somehow these believe had been shaken for the past few days of torment and continous erection of temper... Too tired to comments anymore further.. cause words are no longer able to express how i am feeling now..
I JUST WISH FOR A RESTING POINT, A POINT FOR ME TO CONFRONT OR REST ON.. ONCE IN AWHILE.. THEN IN RETURN, I WOULD PROVIDE LIFETIME GUARDIAN AT WHATEVER COST.. REALLY DAMPEN TO THE CORE..
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11:05 PM
